I was talking to one of my friends last night and I got severly depressed when he got offline, so I sat on my bed crying, waiting for him to get back online. I shouldn't have told him that I was crying because he was trying to keep my mind busy and we got onto the topic of self-defence, and I pissed him off because I told him i'd just lay there and die if someone tried to hurt me, and then he started cursing because I reminded him of suisidal people. I just wanted to lay there and die, I don't like it when he's mad it makes things worse than they really are. Just to make things worse, when he went to bed I had a severe panic attack, I was sitting there crying and I couldn't scream for help because I couldn't breath, last night was such a screwed up. Now a whole eighteen hours I dont think I can talk to him without feeling bad. Please help me, anyone.
 Monkey-D-Zolo · Sun Sep 13, 2009 @ 10:10pm · 1 Comments |
