You know, it seems I can't take one step foward without first taking two steps back.
Before Christmas break, I almost had things exactly how I wanted them. But now, after two weeks off, things are hectic again. And it's not even at it's worse: Robotics starts tomorrow. Don't get me wrong, I love it... but good Lord, it's always so dramatic with those people. And, though I do want drama in my life, robotics isn't exactly supposed to be half as dramatic as it is.
I guess that's why I love it though.. if only other people knew what it was all about.
I have homework in all of my classes this weekend as well. The physics and Trig are will be easy enough to finish, but I have to write a newspaper article as well. The article is going to be about several things students can get envolved with this season. I'm not quite sure what my approach should be or how to pull things together but I want it to be decent... for more reasons than simply my grade.
I just want to seem like a decent person to a certain someone in that class. A few of my friends tell me to stop torturing myself and tell him but I'd rather not. I know that you're supposed to "follow your heart" and take chances. It's just, I think it would be nice if he liked me, and even nicer if he liked me without him knowing that I liked him.
Eh, a girl can dream, can't she?
But yeah, before break I actually talked to him a couple of times... like, really talked. More than just hi's and yeah's. Sure the conversations were weird and kinda strained, but they were better than nothing. I guess I was expecting things to go even better after vacation, but I only saw him 10min. all week long.
Oh well, there's always next week. I'm going to be gone again for county band...
Speaking of... it was freakin' awesome. It's so nice to be around people who can actually sightread, practice just as much as I do, and love every little eighth note. Seriously, there is no other group of muscians who can pull together a quality program in only 3 rehearsals. They care, they want to sound good, and they play with such feeling. No staccatto is taken lightly. And the best part is, they can do all of this, and still have fun.
Tuesday was awesome. I forgot what it was like to be around those people, and let me tell you, the months I spent practicing the audition piece and the tramatizing audition itself was most definately worth all the sweat and blood I put into it.
Okay, maybe that's a little too intense, but you get the picture, ne?
Oooh, speaking of practicing, the flute thing is working out nicely. You know, the flute is way harder to play than floutists make it look but when I have time, I pull it out and play it.
Now, if only I could find a group to play it with. I have jazz band for my sax and all other bands for my clarinet... but nothing for the flute. I'll just have to keep my ears open and see if anything comes up.
I want to continue band in college, so I think that it's important that I learn to play a bunch of instruments well (but keep the clarinet at the top). Even though I would prefer to play the clarinet in college, I know that it would be better to be flexible, ya know? What I'm trying to say is that I don't care what I'm playing, I just want to be a part of it.
Yeah, all that jazz.
Well, my dad is out for the night and even though I have Robotics kickoff tomorrow morning I'm gonna whore around Gaia and bit more before I hit the sack... I'll go find someone to spill my shoulda, coulda, woulda's and what if?'s to, because, believe it or not, I still haven't gotten half the things off my chest that I wanted to.
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