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A new year, so many things to do in it ^^''' Ugh..there are just so many things I would like to do this year and I hope I can do them all. For starters, I really wanna finish at least one of my stories...doubt it though. Worth Millions will probably be finished in a year, while My Best Friend Sakuya Miura will take me a while to finish...I haven't had any motivation for that for a while...and My Destiny in a History Book will probably be completed in the year I finish high school xd To Show Them All and Ten Ways to Hide a Cold Sore will mostly likely be pulled off Fanfiction.net since I gotta focus on Worth Millions, 5 Star Man, and my latest masterpiece Confessions of a Disfunctional Cooking School Student...then there's a story that I'm writing with my friend, and she insists that I take my time on it because she thinks it would turn out to be a cool anime/manga. Then there's all the unwritten stories that are floating through my brain and most likely will never be made stories, even though I would still really like to have The Hikari Resort and Spa made into a story...I'll have to redo the rp though...I hope those who were in it the first time will come join it again. (Kei, Rika...I'm talking about you two whee ) I have a lot of stuff to do to improve my social life, like not being so shy and all that stuff. I also hope the guy I like asks me to winter forma, though chances are slim mad But if he did ask me out, it would totally boost up my self confidence...which is sorta lacking at the moment since I've never had a boyfriend in all my life. What sucks is I think I'm the only one at my school with that situation. It's not like I've never been asked out before...my best guy friend at school asked my out and it scared the hell out of me because this guy knew EVERYTHING about me. Safe to say I said no because it would cause inner conflicts with my friends because I'm the one that introduced the guy to them and that he's friends with everyone in my group. Another issue I have with my social life, I'm like the friend filter/ Person that everyone one is firends with before they move onto better people. I hate that! Its always as if when new people establish themselves with other people I'm forgotten. Its the same with all the firends in my group though, I brought them all together but sometimes they treat me like st! mad I hardly ever get invited to the movies by anyone and it drives me insane! I swear I'm just seen as the friend filter, but guess what! I WANT SOME ATTENTION TO! Invite me to the movies, to a friends house ANYTHING! But I hate it when people think that they can step over me and not allow me to do anything! I HATE IT!!! This is just one reason I HATE my school, just another reason why I'm always writing stupid stories, because sometimes I feel as if my own characters are the ONLY friends I have. All my life I've had people decieve me, lie to me and stab me in the back! Whenever I see little kids with their best friends who basically are as close as siblings it makes me want to cry because I used to have that till my old best friend out grew me! I am so going to print out this paragraph and give it to all my friends, the only way I can say anything is if I write it out. Oh and just a question for all my friends at school, do you guys know anything about me besides my love for anime and writing? Friends on Gaia: Sometimes I feel as if I'm closer to you than to the people who have known me for years stare** I mean come on! I've never asked for attention, but some would be nice!

Posted by: Hitokiri Hitaru Thu Jan 05, 2006 @ 12:33am

"I'm a Panini."
- Panini, 2022

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Commented on: Thu Jan 05, 2006 @ 10:11am


	I know how you feel. I have been through it for years. I am closer with my online friends than I have been with offline friends for like a year now. sad

Commented on: Fri Jan 06, 2006 @ 12:29am


	[size=9]I did go a tiny bit over board, its not as if my friends don't love me, I know they do...its just that I need some TLC ^^ I blame that negative paragraph on my demon Grandmother! She's one of those people who sees the world as a glass half empty. I hate her, she only talks to me about horrible things! Today I was rather sick so I wasn't eating much and she was pretty much implying that I was anorexic. stare The truth of the matter is that I inherited the fast motablizm on my mother's side of the family, so even if I eat a double cheeseburger with a large order of fries and a milkshake...I won't gain a pound! heart Back onto my grandmother, you have no idea how much of a b*h she is! She absolutely loathes my mom and has done horrible things to her and my other family, including that she said that her family is st. And still after all she's done to them they continue to try to make her part of the family because she has no one left besides my Dad and me. Its amazing that such a nice person as my dad came out of such a terrible woman! My great aunt on my mom's side is a healer/ yoga instructor and she wanted to give my grandmother a healing treatment of some sort...which feel very relaxing by the way, and the woman screamed that she was a witch. I would love to see the look on her face when she finds out that my aunt is teaching me all she knows. It's hilarious because my aunt thinks that she is an evil spirit and its no wonder that she's afraid of her and her healing powers. But yeah...I've been around my icky grandmother for almost a week, the longest I've ever been around her, and I think she's starting to get to me. I don't think I've ever been around such a negative person ever! I think her wicked powers of evil made me sick. Who knows what witchcraft she does in her apartment XD I'm usually not a very guarded person...but I can't stand her touching me! Not after knowing all the horrible things she's done! And only my closest friends and family are permitted to touch my hair! My hair got icky after she played with it, and today I had to go get it done because it ended so bad that I couldn't brush it anymore. I feel much better now! I can't believe I wrote this when my dad was on the computer right behind mine...but I have a feeling that he hates her too ? My faimly is VERY interesting :XD [/size]

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Commented on: Fri Jan 06, 2006 @ 09:48pm

Commented on: Mon Jan 09, 2006 @ 03:35am


	Awww! This is why I think you're uber awesome Kei!!!!! glomps

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