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Great. [yay! more ranting >_> ]
My parents piss me the hell off sometimes. They have no idea how pathetic it is that I can't even go outside of the house [and into the backyard] without asking for PERMISSION.
I can't go outside and take out the trash without PERMISSION.
I can't go to the library after school without having my mom thinking that I'm going to meet up with some boy and "get raped". [...I understand that I need permission to go places, and I fully respect and understand why. I just am disturbed by the fact they don't trust me.]
I can't go to any public location without my parents following me, holding my hand, and butting into my conversations. Its beyond humiliating. I'm in high school. Starting next term, I won't be taking regular high school courses, instead I'll be taking COLLEGE LEVEL COURSES.
Hah. So even though I've got the brain, I'm still a "kid"
Even though I spent 95% of my childhood taking different types of martial arts and learning various forms of self-defense, I'm still "weak".
Even though I've proven that I'm skilled enough to use almost anything as a weapon, and proved I'm able to handle myself pretty well, I still can't be trusted. [don't ask how I proved it. Long story.]
When I actually get to go to parties without my parents following me around, I call them and make sure they know where I am. I'm careful and am ready to leave at the exact time that they say I'm supposed to leave.
I haven't went out all damned summer because of the fact I get massively sick during ovulation and my actual period. I never had the issue and since i'm starting to get bad symptoms two years after, they suddenly suspect I'm on drugs/have had sex/was pregnant and got an abortion/ect. When I haven't even kissed a boy! I only had 2 boyfriends ever. And the most I ever did with them was hug because I was shy/embarrassed about kissing.
The fact I get sick like that means I spend 2-3 weeks of every month unable to go anywhere or do anything. I'm going to get treatment for it soon, but do you have any idea how much it sucks knowing you only have a week or two of every month to be able to do things with your friends?
So this week and some of next week I'll still be pretty normal, so I wanted to take advantage of that and finally go out with my friends to the mall. They're older than me. I'm going with two 15 year old girls and one 17 year old girl [17 year old is my friend's older sis]. And suddenly my mom freaks out and wants to "take care of us". As in, literally walk right next to us, follow us every where and make it seem like we're kids. Its worse because, my friends are all older and have freedom, so I bet they'd feel weird being looked after by my mom. Then my mom thinks that I'm going to meet up with guys while I'm there and do "explicit things" with them. [>_> I'm turning 14 soon and just starting high school, afraid of kissing, and she's thinking that I want to do THAT?! wth ]
Mom also thinks I'm lesbian. Just because I don't talk to her about my guy friends/don't ask her about being able to hang out with them on weekends. I have guy friends, I like guys. She and my dad just don't trust me around boys and never have, so I find no reason to bring them up. Last time my parents saw me with a guy, they assumed he was my "boyfriend" and lectured him. Just because he was helping me carry my textbooks on my way home doesn't suddenly make him my boyfriend. I hate how they jump the gun like that. It was awkward talking to him after that because even HE noticed my parents thought that about us. And also because I have Bisexual/gay friends [not many. like two or three.] they suddenly think I'm gay too. Wtf, I've been asked out by my one of my gay friends and rejected her because I wasn't into girls. [And I doubt I ever will like girls like that.]
But then my dad joins in and says I'm "anti-social" and have no friends or whatever, and thats why I never ask to go places. And now that I suddenly made friends, I'm being easily influenced.
I've always had friends. The same ones since I was younger. They just grew up and have more liberty than I do. Sorry I just happen to be the youngest one in my grade level. Sorry I hang out with older people. Sorry I had to be the first born child and you can't stand to see me grow up.
My parents are a pain sometimes. They say it themselves. They always talk about how they used to "go out on their own", "sneak out of the house", ect. at MY AGE.
._. I don't get my parents. I love them to death and appreciate the fact they care about my well being, but they just take it too far sometimes and make too many assumptions.
 Deadstar x Assembly · Tue Jul 21, 2009 @ 03:04am · 1 Comments |
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