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I can't believe i'm back to feeling this way again. I thought that once would be enough. But of course not. I should have just left them outside and not offer them food like my mom told me to. My mind is basically crushed and i can even thinks straight. It really does feel the same as it did in sixth grade. And he knows what he's doing. He uses his son to get closer to people. His son is THE most adorable six year old i ever met. I've spent 2 days with the kid and he calls me his big sister. I know about his pretty much entire life. He's even comfortable with me to an extent where he told me that he never wants to go home an he also told me how his mom beats him and always yells at him and how he doesnt like her. I feel for this kid honestly. And the worst part of this whole thing happening was that his son was right there as it happened. Right there in the next room. And on top of that he knows that his son is sitting right there and yet he makes faces at me and tell me how beautiful I am. I never want to hear any of those words repeated to me EVER AGAIN, not even from mike. I would've slapped him right in the face but his son was right there. I couldn't have him witness something like that. the last thing i could ever want to do to any kid is traumatize them in any way cuz I've definatly been there and it's not a good feeling. I couldn't stand the fact that he knows how old I am and on top of that HE KNOWS THAT I HAVE A BOYFRIEND and yet HE STIlLL dared to disrespect me and MY MOTHER for being so nice to them IN OUR OWN ******** HOME! I swear to any and every god that exsists THROUGHOUT the heavens, i will ******** this guy up if he EVER comes near me. He's luck i don't have a gun, but he's also unlucky that mom has those shining, stainless steel, brand new knives.

Anyone that knows me well enough knows not to disrespect me in any way. Just because I'm a girl that does nothing but sit around play video games and stay on the computer DOES NOT MEAN the I will not take anything personally. Though I am not a vampire, I'm still absolutly crazy. The sight of his blood will do nothing but bring a smile to my face. But before he's dead, he will see his own blood and he'll understand that he ******** with the wrong girl in the wrong house and sure as hell at the wrong ********' time. Hopefully you guys have enough to bail me out...cuz i'm gonna need it....