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there's no point in living if your going to be tortured all of your life by the shapeless being we all call god. what the ******** did i ever do to god?ever since i was born he has tortured me trying to see how much it took to drive me to suicide and a few times i tried like when i was age 1-3 i would purposely fall down the stairs trying to die so i wouldnt have to live in the hell hole we all call life. i did that over and over until my mom got a baby gate but then as i grew older my mom started drinking and hitting me because my dad left her, we stayed in contact for my sake but my dad didnt want to live with my mom, so after all those years of being physically ad emotionally abused i decided to run away...that was when i was ten so i ran away to my dad and my hell continued until now, tell me, is it possible to stub ur toe on nothing eccept air? is it possible to be slowly turning into a lycanthrope without any way of being turned into one?no? how 'bout your headphones breaking...im sorry i take that back...exploding out of nowhere? let me know if u have an answer to why this is happening to me other than god hates me cause thats the only answer i have, god hates me and always will