June 26, 2009. 4:39AM
Well...I just finished watching thirteen. At the end I relised how she felt.
I know how it feels to get cought for something...you just want to close your eyes and when you wake up it will all just be a dream.
Though it rarely works that way.
I've done things in the past Im not proud of, and Im still doing things today that are really messing some part of my life up.
The thing is...is that I never learn from them though.
I just repet and hope I dont get cought a second time. I just have to be more careful....thats all.
In the movie she does asid(SP)...I havent done it...I dont want to either. But I have done...marajuana(SP)...and something else.
Im glad Im not like her though, I wouldnt do something just to fit in. I dont care what people think of me, I care what I think of me. I care really for myself only and...what makes me happy...I'll do.
I feel selfish saying that...but thats how I feel sometimes.
But I do care for others. I dont like to see people in staits of...hurt and anguish(SP). When I think about it I think about helping them, but then I think - "Why? Its not going to affect my life if they go down that wrong path and its not my buisness."
But then I feel guilty after. I feel like its my responsibility to help them...even though its not.
Another part of the movie she looked in the mirrior at school. I thought to myself - "Does she hate what she sees? Does the person starring back sicken her?"
Watching that part I feel like she already knew what she had gotten herself into...and I feel that way too right before Im going to smoke pot or something.
And I dont like what Im seeing, and what Im doing. I have such a heavy conscious, especialy when things like this happen.
I have alot of things on my conscious. Some of them bad, some of them good...I guess.
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Im listening to the song from the Blood Reign: Course of the yoma trailer that is in my profile.
It makes me think alot...Makes me think...of chragite(SP)...and I guess thats the way it was made.
It was made to feel like that.
The trailer is well made. I first seen the trailer on the tekken movie...I instantly feel in love with it and wanted to see the anime...and movie.
Its beautiful...and sad at the same time.
 Kuma Naru · Fri Jun 26, 2009 @ 01:08pm · 0 Comments |
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