Side Note: This poem was written a while back, while my boyfriend was in the hospital, recovering from a very serious accident. We ended up breaking-up and things were really rocky for a while and I was looking for someone to fill that void he left me with. These were my thoughts all bundled up as close as I could get them. Things are a lot better now and after four months, he's fully recovered, and we're back together.
I'm sitting in my little corner, in a little room, consumed by thoughts of you.
I feel every beat, every pulse, every heartbreak.
I sit there and think,
my insides screaming and bleeding,
filling and overflowing.
My thoughts rushing and blushing, bleeding..
The painful beating of the dust shards of my heart,
each one overtaken by ten times the sorrow of every single man-made war as I try to comfort my shattered heart.
Be still aching heart...
I was able to get you back.
Be strong, no matter how hard and hopeless it seems..
I promise, a promise of fulfillment again.
The re mindful wounds of my past, every gash, every cut, every nick in my heart reopened.
Releasing the bottled up feelings kept away from the world seems so hard,
The shrieks, the stings, the never-ending malignant beings, trying to cloud my judgment, my emotion, my dismay.
I scream, but miraculously I can not hear my anguish, all I hear is mistakes, actions, faults, and demise.
I call out for someone to save me, take away the pain.
Pull me away from myself.
I need nothing more than you.
I'm crying as my heart throbs, the tears and the calling,
jeers and bawling.
Please help me.
Save me from falling.
And now comes the part where I wish I could tell you truthfully..
"Caught by my love, the only one I think of,
The one who I dream of and the one I would, over all else, hold above my heart if rejuvenated,
redone, reborn.
I stare into my loves eyes,
'Thank you, I love you.'
They tear up, feeling the pain, whispering,
'I love you too.'"
And I will forever and always, but I've got to find you first,
So until then I sit here with the company of my swirling thoughts and painful, saddened heart.
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