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Something beautiful died inside of me tonight. It hurts so much... I feel like I'm at the edge of a cliff. Take the fall, and end the hurt? I know I can't... I could never do that...

Almost a year ago, I met someone very dear to me. And our paths crossed so blindly. He just happened to wander by me when I was sitting alone, and he decided to give me his attention. I had not thought of him as anything special when we began to talk. He instantly took my heart though. He was so different from anyone else I had ever met. But... even though I had fallen for him... he was supposed to be off my radar. He was no single passing by to look for love. He was taken, out of my clutches, never to be in my arms. But... he had fallen in love with me as well. We couldn't really stay away from one another. I was always excited to see him, and I took advantage of it. I didn't realize how much he had also fallen for me... Soon, he was mine. I loved him so much, I would have done anything and everything to make him happy, to give him joy. He was the positive to my negative, and I was the leash on the mutt of him that tried to keep him in line. And one day, I decided to go away for a while. I had told him he would always be my Romeo, and I his Juliet. But... I had gone away for too long. It was terrible of me to have not written to him, to ask him how he was and tell him I loved him. And the day finally came where I was back, and we wanted to see eachother. We enjoyed the evening together, and I was bubbly with happiness in his presence. But... he had told me he had found someone else. My carelessness to write to him had cost the love he had for me. I was so dumbfounded, so surprised, so jealous, so angery... so lost. All evil emotions filled my head as I wept in his arms...

Now, I do not know if he wishes to see me ever again. If he really wants to move on with his new Juliet, and forget me...
Maybe it would be easier for him that way. But I cannot deny that I still love him as passionately as ever. He may not see me again, he may lose every ounce of love he has left to me, and he may forget me. But he will always have a special place in my heart, and I shall never forget, and I shall love him as deeply as ever.

And even though a part of myself has gone along with him, the rest of me will slowly disappear until I am full again... but it might be never.