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I've been trying to remember everything in my past... and I haven't found much...

I remember...When I was changing from Stephanie to Aurora, I remembered that my adrienaline was one of the first things that led to me being Aurora... my adrienaline was caused by: Me and my enemy (Jacky) getting near each other, My dad and I having problems... (he used to give me the worst adrienaline rush, enough to make me scream, cry, breathe fast, smash everything I saw, and hurt myself (but I never cut myself at that point.)), and a huge headache................................................
strange thing about all of that memory: it's happening now (me and my enemy, and my headache...all that's left is the adrienaline with my dad(which has started to show like it will happen.))

*** Stephanie has had darkness too, which led to me being Aurora...so even when I was little, I had darkness...

I remember... how when I was small in grade school, everyone in the higher grades made fun of me.....but there was one person didn't hate me... in fact he was the nicest higher-grader I knew... I hate the fact that I don't remember his name (...maybe it's Kyle???), but either way I remember him going on the bus and saying "high-five!"... and I'd look up innocently, smile, then give him a high-five. He wore glasses and had brown hair I think... He was really nice and when he said bye to me for that last time, I never knew I wouldn't see him again... I wish I give him a hug... I'll find out who he is again........some day.

***yes it's all true. Maybe I blushed a couple of times around him, but he was more of a friend than a crush.

I remember... when me and my best friend hugged. It was the beginning of Aurora's side... I didn't show any emotion, and all I could say was "I am not crying... Why can't I cry? I should be...but I'm not." My best friend was dying in tears I felt pitty in my heart, while at the same time I was thinking of the word "pathetic".

***yup.......

I remember... how Aura had one song, one song... that she sang... "Look into the mirror beyond me... notice that I'm right here with you". Then the song "Decode" by Paramore came out... and I was becoming more of Aurora than Aura.

***one of the things that ruined our bond. Kizuna...