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There's a girl at my school that I really dislike, and her name is: Marissa
I hate her, but then again, it's probably not her fault she's evil...
There were a few times where I physically fought with her, but Aura always stopped me, which started to disturb me, but I kept my cool.
yesterday, she got me so mad, that the next word she would say I would punch her, but Aura stopped me again and made me really mad.
I went to sleep with hate in my heart.

In my dream it was a fight between me and her... and it was a fight to the death.
It started at school by the lockers, then somehow in the school parking lot.
I'm not sure of the specific reason I was fighting with her, but it must have been big considering what happened.
All I remember was the anger I had.
She and I were fist fighting at first, by the lockers. Near the lockers there is a window and we went straight through it, and that's not the worst part.
In the parking lot, we were bleeding so much, and I had cuts everywhere, but it didn't matter we still kept fighting. She grabbed an edge of the glass to tried to cut me, but when I kept avoiding her moves I felt that i had something in my back pocket, it was my knife. At that point I was coughing up blood from a punch she gave me in the stomach, while I shed tears of blood. She had the face of a demon bathed in blood, her blue eyes became pitch black, and my eyes became shredding gray.

It was about an hour of fighting non-stop and we kept panting and coughing blood, we were determined to see each other in misery. I hadn't used my knife yet, and I knew I would need it.
The final hit from her was a piece of glass stabbed into my chest, and once I felt that I had nothing but pain and anger. I took out my knife and stabbed her in the heart, than yanked it out. We both screamed in pain from the cuts we had. Aside from the blood in my eyes, I faintly saw a body drop, only one stood, me. My chest cut was nothing compared to what I have given her, but it didn't mean it didn't hurt. Once I got control over my hands I carefully placed the hand without the knife on my chest and ripped out the remaining pieces of shattering glass. My anger ment everything to me at that moment.
I stood in that same spot, holding the knife in my bloody hands, staring at the dead body of a girl. "what have I done?" I'd ask myself. I lifted my hand and stared at the knife, beyond the knife's view I saw a flashback of me stabbing her, but instead of me and her, it was my brother and the people who jumped him...and I was the person that stabbed him.............................
"I'm sorry Aura... I'm sorry Ender... I'm sorry...Marissa"
My hand trembled as I held the knife tightly to chest. "I wasn't suppose to live... I don't think I could survive glass in my chest... This should of never happened."
The sun was setting, the body still laid there, and I still stood motionless of what I've done.
I pointed the knife at my chest... and pressed.
I woke up.
it was all a dream... a real dream...
If Aura is controlling most of my dreams then why did she show it to me?
what if it's true and will happen if i don't control myself?

7/14/09 It wasn't Aura showing me the dream. Jinxx had most control over everything.