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My mom's yelling at me to do dish's, but I tuned her out so I could post another entry. Just some things on my mind I would like to get out.

I think I broke my cell phone. gonk It won't ring anymore crying It makes a funny beeping sound and thats all. I didnt mean to drop it. It just slipped out of my hand 'cause I wasnt paying attention. So now I bought all those stupid ringtones for nothng crying

Beh~I need an excuse for mom to get me a new one anyway. I'ma clean the whole house tommrow and then give her my wishlist XD

Kevin is...eh...just being this annoying way. Now he's possibly going to read this and be 'hurt', but I really don't care due to my sleepiness because I have been staying up talking to him all night. stressed This is affecting my wellbeing and most importantly my school work which need to be good so I can go to a good college and get the hell out of these damn projects. But noooo when I say something he just...grrr....prolongs stuff. Like when I say I have to go he gets all sad and whined he doesn't want me to and I stay becayse I don't want him to feel bad and cry like he did last night...

::sigh::

Kevin claims to love me. stare Can't say how many guys have said *that* to me before. Since August he has had 4 girlfriends I know about and I make 5ish since October. I reeeeeaaaaaalllly don't thrill with the thought of being just another number to a guy of how many girls he can get. stressed The girl he was 'in love' and kissed and crap doesnt even know we go out. Yea, this is a net relationship~I know, I'm not some idiot, but ah~I don't have a problem with tellin the people I know. But then again....none of them really care as long as I don't see him or anything sweatdrop

Kev lives all the way in Texas by Houston, a really cute Asian guy which I adore 'cause I think Asian guys are cute ::drools:: But ah~I think I am just a replacement for the girl he can't be with now (I will explain, if your intrested, just drop me a PM).

But like I said, Kev is always saying he loves me. I don't think he knows what love is and I dispise dealing with people like that. Love is such a strong word...I never use it lightly. If I say I love someone I mean it, and I take special care and concideration when I deal with that person. I don't love just anyone, nor do I say it to please someone.

But Kevin is diffrent, I think he throws the word around because it feels 'nice' to say. I admit it does, but don't ******** toy with me. I have better things I could be doing.

::sigh:: Moving on now~

I hate the shirt I am wearing today, but it is my fave shirt. It's orange and like...one of the few things Greg ever got me. sweatdrop Its spagehtti strap so I have to wear a strapless bra with it @_@ I hate this bra. My boobs are to big for strapless anything~and I have adjusted it so many times today. I am so happy I wore my coat allday today, because as I was running to catch up with my friend Cody~my boobs like...fell out @_@ I was so embarassed, and so happy for my coat XD

You know~since I got off the Depo shot onto the patch, I lost all that ugly weight ( crying 20 pounds~!!!!) I gained and I feel kinda like I'm pretty whee I will say though, my friends have been paying me more attention xd (I hang out with all guys, for those who don't know wink )

You know...I can't wait till I get older. I want to have kids so bad. I mean...well see, redface I was watching 'Birth Day' this show on TV about mom's having babys today. I never watch this show, but today I was just intrested to. Its such a 'magicial' process that I can't wait to embark on. I hope I find the right guy to do this with though, I don't want to be left a single mother like so many women I know 3nodding The process of having a child (before and during) looks so enchanting even though I know it will hurt and make me feel like I'd rather be dead and stuff XD I can't wait to hold in my own arms a being that came out of me. Something I will always guard and treasure with my life, to feel liek I need someone and they need me as well 3nodding I know I'm lookingn at this in a foolish young girl way~ redface but I can't wait till I am out of college and can suppport someone else fully. 3nodding

And thus~moving on once more XD

I want a weed brownie sad I want one so bad I could cry right now. Everyone I care about has had one but me. Just one brownie would make my day. Greg said on my 17th b-day (W00T~! Just two months away 4laugh ) he will get me one as a gift. Beh~I dont want to wait though stare Stupid patience

Alright, if my mom nags me anymore were going to fight and I am really to sleepy for this. So I guess I'll go ::yawn::