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~Roses' Petals That Fall~
For some reason I was signaled to go to Green Peak Park... (a place with several hills)
something was very peculiar today...
The sun shinned but it never sparkled
the grass, soft but not soothing
the wind, blowing on me but actually whispering to me.
I walked wherever the wind told me and I kept listening to the wind until I felt a large amount of darkness coming from a dark figure.
I moved closer, each inch made the figure clearer and clearer... it was a guy... holding a knife with no one around him...
he was whispering something, I moved even closer, I heard the words "...There's no reason to be in this world." he raised his hand with his knife...
"No!" I kept thinking. I ran with tears blinding me, and I tackled him. When I opened my eyes I was lying on him, his face covered with my tears, his knife was dropped, his face, mysterious as the moon. It took about a minute to realize what I did and where I was. Aside from my tears, my face felt red... I was actually blushing, that isn't like me.
With an emotionless face he helped me sit on the hill and asked me "Who are you?"
I had no control over my thoughts, I responded "I don't know..."
"Why did you save me?"
My heart was pounding "I was lured here."
"By who?"
"By the wind..." I whispered.
"You shouldn't be here... Why are you? Why did you save me?" His voice... it sounded like anger
"I don't want you to die." I calmly said
"You don't even know me."
"I feel like I should...and I want to." My emotions were undecided at that moment, no joy or sorrow.
We stared into each other's eyes...
I knew he was looking to see what my thoughts were, and I was looking to see his point of view.
We both found nothing, no conclusions, and I was sure of that.
"Are you going to let me kill myself?" his question echoed in my mind
"No... at least not yet."
"Do you have a reason for living?" His question... it made me want to fall back and close my eyes, just to think about life.
"I can't leave this world...yet. Some people that I care about are still in this world, wanting me to stay." I had no idea what I was saying at the moment... but it felt like it had reason... I was never like this, I would always be cheerful, like a light.
"Tell me, what do you think of when you hear the word darkness?"
"addiction..." I had no control over my words now.
"Then why did you save me?" his voice lost emotion.
"I'm a seeker of darkness, trapped in the realm of light. And to thee... I am a light at the end of thou tunnel." No emotion was in my face now.
"So you're my light? ... I like this light shut off." he grunted
I had control over everything now "I am a light... there isn't anything I can do about it."
"Hand me my knife back."
"I shall do no such thing." It took me a while to realize my power over everything was gone again.
"you're lucky... you have people that want you in your life. I have nobody" he started to walk away...
"Then I will be there for you. If no one else in this world loves you, then I do." my face turned red again.
He got in touch with his knife again and just when I thought he was going to cut himself again he said "here, this will be useful in the future."
My eyes were wide open, I felt the wind blowing on me as the sunny day became a cloudy, gray sky. I saw him, the farther he got away, the more he looked like a shadow of darkness.