Fear; unsure of everything.
I sit here at a loss, wondering what great sin I committed to make my family turn on me.
disbelief surrounds me, they dont' want me to speak out in my own defense.
They would see me crushed and bent to their will.
These people, people I grew up with, people who should know me better than all others.
All I will ever bee to them is a continual disappointment.
Then come my "friends", the girls I've known sine childhood.
No understanding, no attempt to maintain the closeness of years past.
They've grown up and left me behind; I can't keep up with them physically or financially.
Then you come along.
You expect nothing from me.
You don't judge, you don't condemn.
All you do is see me, care for who I am.
As silly as it sounds, I think I've fallen in love with your hugs.
YOu don't understand what they mean to me.
In that small gesture, I feel total acceptance, no conditions to a friendship.
It is real, and a lifeline for me right now. Now, when I'm doubting my oldest friendships and bloodties.
Bet you didn't know your hugs were magic....
Thank you, heart
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