so much pain.................from loven someone fully and tr
...................why..........................................................why..................................................................i...........................i dont kno what to do..............................im....hurt........................................i met this girl........................................we became friends threw my bro.....................thats all i intened to become..................................friends..............................but she stole my heart.....................................and we fell in love................................i......................i thought nonething would tear us apart....and that id always be ther for her.......no matter what it took...................................................but.......................she droped me.......................for my age.....................................im only 3 or our years younger than her..........................and im 13 going on 14 soon....................................................i loved her................................i truly loved her.....................................she was my first..................................i feel like my heart was grined up................................it hurts..............................mr heart,...........my feelings,..................my head,................my life,.....................it all hurts so much........................and i cant understand............why in the hell....................................do i still love her.........................................................................why do i feel so ******** cold.........*tears begin to run dow my cheeks*........why.......................................i dont like it..............................dont like it at all......................not one..bit........................................................i want to be with her.....................but......................she doesnt want me any more.......................................................i broke down in front of her...........and she tried to make me happy again.............by saying she wont go...........................*shakes head weeping*.......no....................i dont want her to be with me to make me feel better..............thats.............................................thats not tru love........its not tru............all this hurt.....all this pain...........................................i feel so ******** weak..........................i wanted to be there for her...............to protect her................to make her happy.............make her feel safe.........................but she.................................i dont want to keep her with me if shes unhappy and would prefer someone else..................................................................................older.........................................................................i hate my self for still loveing her.........................but.....................................i still love her down to the very bottom of my heart......................................*weeping full of sarrow*................................i promised......................................................i promised..............................................i ******** promised...................................but i failed u...............................my.............................................my hachi.........................................my dear hachi.............................................................my one tru love...............................................hachi...........................*speaks under breath while weeping sarrowfully*............................forgive me heart cry
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