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-Le Sigh- Sure I am going through a bit of a rough patch but that doesn't mean I want to talk about it. Thank you for everyone that cares. I am not in critical condition or that s**t. I'm just lonely still. It gets to the point where you are becoming numb then you defrost later. It's just a phase. Don't worry too much. Like you all say... I just need some time alone, to think?

I need to eat. My teeth always ache when I don't eat. Grawr. I can't wait to go home this month. I want to make Peach Kuchen but I have to wait until Monday. That way Tuesday is really speical. Yes indeed-eroo. Next week. I need to get groceries this weekend... wait... no... yes? I don't know.

When I get to this inbetween point, my thoughts just become very bland and dry. I have a hard time generating thoughts or discussion. So sue me if I don't want to talk. I don't want anyone to think I am mad at them or irritated. I am just... dull. I use so much energy all the time it is only natural that I would be drained of my speical magic and need time to recover. I spend so much effort on making everyone else happier and energized that I have these lonely streaks. They are only temporary. My friends try to make me feel the same. The speical things are worth all the effort. Thank you.