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"is this love or is this hate,
each second passes,
with powerful thoughts,
of you and i."

I don't really know if this is love of if it is a divowering painthatbrought me to find the face behind your smile. I will never know if i am in love with you, or if i just hate you, but someday will meet again eye-to-eye.
Maybe its just your smile, your hair, maybe your nose, i will never truly know how i feel about you, maybe perhapes it it those pale ocean eyes.
It takes me a while but one day i find out that it is love, but not i who loves you, but you who loves me.
I know your name, i will not say, You know me, you will not speak, we know each other but yet we don't.

This is some ranting thing that i wrote one day. I was really sad and depreessed and wanted to end my life. Somehow though this brought me through. I can't believe i feel this way about one boy in our grade. I started cutting for some pain, but it did not help, i stopped and watched and waited for something more. I have not found it yet, but I really hope This boy beats the pain to me... =(

I feel like s**t.... i love him but how do i tell him someone please tell me.