I'm happy.
I'm laughing.
But it's not real.
It never is.
Never.
I forgot how to.
I don't remember.
I can't remember.
I'll never remember.
I'm not happy.
I only act hyper so they leave me.
I only laugh so they can shut up.
I only smile so they don't suspect anything.
So far it's all working.
One asks questions.
The other looks at me odd.
I tell them the same thing.
Always.
They'll never know.
Never.
I won't let them get close.
Ever.
They'll stay as far as possible.
Without even knowing.
I wont let them see me weak.
I'll be strong.
I'll do my best.
To say unknowned.
In the dark.
In the shadows.
Alone.
I'll do anything.
Make my blood cold.
Turn my heart to stone.
Say lies.
To push you away.
I don't want you close.
I don't want to stain you.
I don't want to hurt you.
Stay away.
Let me go.
Let me die.
Don't you cry.
I wont let you.
I can't let you.
Please don't.
Don't stop me.
Let me free.
I wont leave you yet.
But soon.
In a day.
In a month.
In a year.
You never know.
I've planned this for years.
Anything can happen.
Anything.
anything...
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