Just what am I to do about school? I love to learn and to read and to explore new things but I just can't do that by sitting in a classroom. I tried sticking it out but things piled up and it wasn't good for my health. Then I tried online classes that gave me more freedom and choices...but I ended up reading story books all day. So I think I might try a happy medium between the two. Take classes like I used to and take a couple online as well. Mom has agreed to let me keep my laptop so I can work down in my room away from the noise of the kitchen and the T.V.
yet something is still nagging at me. The part of me that couldn't take regular high school has been dormant for almost a year now. What if it suddenly wakes and I'm worse off than before? What if I lash out at students and teachers and friends like I used to?
And I have to ask, am I still a child? Not age wise but mentally. I know that a part of me will always be a kid since I love Anime and Manga so much but am I ready to go out there into the real world and live a successful life? How does one go about "growing up" anyway? My parent's haven't done a very good job of teaching that to me...they've shown me what NOT to do but how do I know what I'm supposed to do? . . . am I making sense any more?
Am I just going to have to take life one day at a time and live pay check to pay check? I have to say, that doesn't sound very appealing to me.
I know I don't get along with other people all that well, and I hardly understand technology...but does that matter when all I want to do is be locked in a back room fixing books?
Oh,and,I,love,to,over,use,comma's,just,so,you,know. X_x I need to work on my grammar and my spelling and pretty much everything else before I can do whatever the hell I'm meant to do for the rest of my pathetic little life.
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