so i'm lost and confused and i think i'm hitting that time in my relationship were i try to pull away so as to not sufficate him. I love him so much but i almost feel like he would be better off without me. he could go where ever he wanted and not think about me, about how life would be without me or how we would keep it going. i have wanted to move in with him for a long time, marry him and have little babies but these days i feel like that isnt what he wants.
my resolution as of this minute is that i will work my hardest at everything i do so that he can see that i am a good person and that i deserve everything what has been given to me. I shall do my homework and go to class. I shall start making things to sell this summer and i shall work really hard to apply to as many jobs as possible.
I love him and i want him to see that he is not wasting his time and energy on me.
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