You're pulling away from me. You won't sit by me anymore. You're barely talking to me anymore. You barely even look at me. You won't tell me you love me, you won't compliment me.
You're going back to hanging out with people that I don't like. People who do drugs on a regular basis and don't care what they do or who they hurt while they do it.
I've been good. I've been trying my hardest. If you are going to pull away from me, I will pull away first. I can't let you do that to me again. I won't let you. I refuse to let you pull away from me first. I can't go through that again. I won't.
You've hurt me too much to pull back now. You've made me get in too deep to pull away now. If you're going to do it, do it now, do it all the way and do it fast. Maybe I'll be able to get over you, I doubt it though. I've gone too far to let you go. I'm in too deep.
If I pull away, I'll do it as fast as I can, if you don't beat me to it. But right now, you're hurting me too much. Now you are pulling away. You tell me it's because I'm forcing myself upon you. I don't mean to. I just can't live like you can. Not knowing what is going on, not knowing how you feel. You know how I feel. You know that my happiness lies entirely within you. You know that you are dangling my happiness just out of my reach. You know all of this and yet, you expect me to be okay with knowing nothing.
What am I supposed to do?
I will pull away if I have to.
I don't want to. At all.
Please don't make me.
 MadameEx · Thu Feb 19, 2009 @ 01:45am · 0 Comments |
