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I want those months back. I want that day back. maybe I'd have a boyfriend now. maybe I'd have gotten perfect grades. it's like fighting with this invisible force just to let myself out. there are so many regrets to face. part of me just wants to sleep. not because I'm tired, but because I'm fighting the desire to give up. to just hide in my dreams. I'm always angry at someone. I feel like nobody understands. I just want to be happy again. oh Mo, it's so much easier to die then face this, isn't it? I'm glad you don't have to deal with pain anymore. that's my only consolation. you are free of that burden. I thought I had issues before. now I don't know where to start. I want to be in love. I want someone to be there for me. more than I ever wanted it before. when I wear my angel wings, I think of you. people like you should live forever, not die. I'm still afraid to cross busy streets sometimes. I'm going to get that tattoo no matter how much it hurts or how much it sets me back in life. you deserve that recognition. it's V-day and I'm mostly just thinking of you. nobody else can provide me with real love anyway. most of the world doesn't understand what real love is. I love you. please be my valentine, because I'm sure nobody else will. we don't even like this holiday! I know I am right!! I like to keep thoughts of you alive that are actually like you. you believed in true and natural innate love just like me. we are one in the same. it could've been me, but it wasn't.