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I can't take it anymore, it's like they're teaming up against me. What ever in the world did I do to deserve the anger and rage that's being thrown my way?

My father is taking his rage out on me because my mother isn't here for Valentines day, and I can understand his emotion towards this...but really...what kind of a dad would do that to his child? And also, he's changed his mind about the convention that I"m supposed to go to. I already have the application filled out and everything, it's my job that Saturday and I HAVE to go...I HAVE to go because I already PAID to go and BOUGHT a table so that I could SELL my art there! He's said three times "It's okay if you go, it's okay." and now all of a sudden "Oh no, not if your lap top isn't ready by then." WHAT THE HELL JOURNAL, WHAT THE HELL!

I told my mom about this and she said "Well, there's nothing I can do about it from here..." and it SUCKS! She could tell him "Hey, just let her go." and that would be the end of it, but HELL TO THE NO JOURNAL, HELL TO THE NO! I can't take it anymore. I hate feeling like I'm trapped in my own home...I hate feeling like my dad and mom are preying on me...just waiting for my next shot at happiness then, like the demons they are, shooting it away from me and poking me again and again with their pitch forks. Not hanging out with friends, yeah I understand. My grades currently suck and my chores aren't getting done...so yeah of course there are some restrictions...but when you've already said it's okay for somebody to do something, it is UNFORGIVEABLE to just up and change your mind and then decide "No, you can't go." like my dad did. WHAT THE HELL!

I can't take it...I'm sick of it...and I want to be rescued. I know that I'm not the easiest person in the world to deal with and I realize that I have an attitude sometimes...I know...but why...why should that give them any right to keep me in the dark and conspire against me? Maybe it's just because I'm a teenager that I feel this way...but it doesn't change the fact that that's how I feel.

My mother said that when she comes home we're going to sit down as a family and talk things out so that we can be a family again...well...i'm going to tell them I'm getting emancipated then...or perhaps I'll just run away...wouldn't that teach them that they're sucky a** parents? I don't know...all I know is that I'm NOT going to raise my children then way. They'll have free will...and I will let them ENJOY their childhood years, that way they'll have good memories. My children will NEVER have memories of their father almost drowning them or their mother smacking them with a diamond ring...the diamong hitting their cheek and causing them to bleed. HELL TO THE NO JOURNAL, MY CHILDREN WILL NEVER SUFFER LIKE I DID WHEN I WAS YOUNG!