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Frankly, my schedule is trying to right itself, but right now we can't seem to permanently convince my grandmother with early stage Alzheimer's to let somebody other than my immediate family (me, my mom, and my dad) to take her to the hospital to visit her slightly chauvinistic and currently hallucinating husband. My parents both work, so during the week, I'm the only one who can take her. She's not really that far gone yet and she's taking medication that's supposed to slow it down even more (though she thinks she forgets even when we call her to take it and she says she takes it while we're on the phone). My mom's parents (who have taken much better care of their minds and bodies over the years) are willing to take her to visit him, but she won't let anybody else take her. She says she'd rather just not go in that case. But I'm not allowed to just not take her some days.

Because of all this nastiness and the fact that my dad tells her I have nothing to do all day, I have no time to do anything. Sure a couple hours here and there, but no time to really get anything significant done.

Here's my to do list:

1. Take defensive driving.
If I don't do this REALLY soon, I'm going to have a bigger fine. I'd like to do it online, but it's a 5 hour course no matter where I look, and I definitely never have five hours of time.

2. Find, get and do an internship for required college credit for my graduation.
If I don't do this, I don't graduate this May. It's all I've got left. I almost wish I had a full load this semester, so I wouldn't have to do all this. If that doesn't work, I need to do odd jobs until I rack up 160 hours of work for the credit instead. I guess plan C is withdrawing from this course, and attempting to do it in the summer after I move. It would work, since I only have to show up in class twice.

3. Plan my WEDDING!
I'm getting married, May 23rd. I can't even be freakin' happy about that because of all the crap that's going on right now.

I have two fun things a week, aside from Gaia, which I seem to be having less and less time for. I have two separate role playing groups, one on Tuesday and one on Thursday. I may not be allowed to do the one on Thursday, simply because my parents already don't like me having one gaming session.

On top of all this, my family has always been barely making enough money to support ourselves and of course the hospital where my grandfather is staying is located all the way across town. And my grandmother never volunteers money for gas, I always have to ask for it.

I'm also a little worried that we won't have enough money for me to go visit my fiance next month.

I've got no one to talk to at any time I want. My parents are tired and don't really want to hear any more, plus they're going through the same thing. Lith's so busy lately with everything he has to do for school, and I certainly can't bother him late at night for whatever reason, since he needs to get his sleep. And there's nobody else I'd really feel comfortable with talking to about things in the manner I need to.