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" Whats the case?! " hollered the doctor as he rushed along side the nurse through the emergency room at 2a.m that faithful morning.
" Female; About age 15 or 16 from the looks of it. Its another teen suicide case." she swiftly replied.
"Theres been more and more of these nowadays hasn't there now? Any who is she already undergoing treatment? " questioned the doctor.
" Yes. I already took the care of stopping the bleeding from her right wrist. She should regain consciousness soon doctor. Also I picked up her medical records in case you wanted to take a quick look at them. " said the nurse.
The doctor scanned the file as he kept with his quick paced movement towards the patient's room.
" This girls been here 1 year ago for another suicide! It says shes a failed suicidal patient. This makes her 2nd time here for the same cause, " the doctor paused as he spoke to reach deeper into the file and pull out a document· " It means that now we may just have to go through with the full extent of the legal procedures. " continued the doctor as he entered the room only to hear the young teen shout "Just let me die once and for all damn it! "
The doctor knelt down so he and the teen were at about the same eye level. The young girl was out of breath and her eyes were beginning to run tears as she resentfully turned her face in the other direction.
" Is life honestly that bad? " the doctor began, " You can become more. Your life can become more if you continue to live and allow it to. From the looks of it, you obviously dont want to live anymore, and as a doctor I am obligated to let you choose between life and death at this point. "
The girl turned back to the doctors direction and began to pay more attention to his words.
" Look, " he continued, " This form here is from the government. It states failed suicide institute patients have the right to choose their death. You just happen to be a failed patient so, tell me, which do you choose? life or death? Theres no one to stop you at this point. " he proclaimed in the most gentle manner possible.
"....Let me die..." she said in a rough, faint voice. " I hate it. Let me let go of this horrid misery at last..."
The doctor got up and placed the document next to the girls bed.
" Well, sign that form there and its all over. " he mumbled as he meandered out of the room.
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That girl was me. Nishiharu Nara; Age 15.
That night as i sealed my fate with a box-cutter knife I was drunken once again. Ever since his death my life has worsened.
My beloved, Tamaki, had committed suicide as well a couple of months ago at a party. The morning after that party would be known as "The funerary parade" for us. Everyone attending that party had died one way or another, even the host himself. Some by murder, others by blatant suicide. Only 4 people survived the party and out them was myself and my childhood friend/neighbor Yukiya-kun. I met Tamaki before trying to kill myself in the back ally of a store. Tamaki was the one who convinced me not to go through with it. He cared for me like no one else ever had. I began to develop a strong sense of admiration towards him as the years went by, and that night at the party I planned to confess.
Right as I made my way to his location, a sudden uproar occurred in the drunken haze. The host and other guests had hung themselves from the roof. Before I could process what was going on, the disruption had a chain-effect. Each one of the guest began to kill others or themselves. I was absolutely mortified.
As a knife flew towards my neck, Yukiya grasped my arm and dragged me into a nearby bathroom. Apparently he saved me.
" Rape?? Murder?? Is that what he plans?" i soliloquized to myself as Yukiya plopped me onto the floor and locked the door.
" No you clueless idiot. Who the hell would wanna rape you and your boob-less body anyways! " he whispered under his breath.
" YUKIYA! biggrin " I exclaimed getting up from my spot to glomp him. " YOU'RE NOT A DRUNK FREAK LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! biggrin "
Yukiya disregarded my foolish behavior and kept me silent. He explained that it would be best if we hide as to not be killed. Hours passed by and at last someone opened the door. It was an officer who had came to investigate. As he led us outside to interrogate us and the other 2 survivors, i passed through and came across Tamaki's corpse. It lied ontop of another girls body holding her in a tight embrace. Immediately a feeling of terror ran down my spine.
" Officer! Do you know what happened to that boy there?! Do you!? " I suddenly burst into tears as the words came out of my mouth.
" suicide " he replied.
Without Tamaki my life was incomplete. I found no true purpose to live. I had no true friends. My parents didn't give a damn what i did with my life, since i would never be good enough to meet their expectations as a daughter. Therefore, the faithful night of my death , I signed my name onto the document· Never to awaken again....
At least thats what I thought until my body hit the concrete ground. As I rubbed my aching back, I realized I wasnt the only one here. Who are these people? Where necessarily is HERE?
and most importantly WHY AM I STILL ALIVE?!
The board in front of me said it all.
"' Suicide island.' The one place where suicide failiures such as yourselves will rot peacefully. "
Read alloud one of the strangers infront of me. In smaller font it had a note which i read to myself.
" Those here have been marked as dead in Japan and family have already been notified. This island was created for suicidees' who refuse to live. we will not be held accountable for your lives from this point on and you are to die when you choose. You will NOT be allowed to re-enter the country or leave this island. ( government of Japan 2006 ) "
This island is 2 years old so wouldnt some of the people from the party be here, i pondered. I dont want to die here. This is not what I intended for it to all be like. What was the point of my ranting? I was already "dead".
After 10 minutes of contemplation, i stood up and left the crowd to meander this barren wasteland of an island alone.
 Deadstar x Assembly · Fri Jan 02, 2009 @ 07:38pm · 1 Comments |
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