Insanity
Another dream has come and gone
A stream of memories course through me
Like liquor I am mesmerized by its greatness
Only to fall to my own miss leadings
The puppet asked his puppeteer why he existed
The child asked his mother why he was born
The computer asked its user why it is used
The people ask their gods why existence is
I am more a fool than an intelligent one
I distrust in my decisions for that reason
I was always told I wasn’t capable
Of guiding a safe life with my mind
As soon as the sun rises I am in a hell
The world ready to devour my every weakness
But at times I let it nibble on my flesh
Then again I never said that, only instilled
I trust no one for reasons I can’t even think of
I guess the problem is simpler than many
I just lack the trust that is required
Like if they were not of my race or kind
When I truly try my hardest is when it hurts most
I stand in a point where everything is just wrong
Like if I wanted things right I would be punished worse
Like if my good intentions only get me killed in life
I dared to dream once in my distant past
A child with hopes for great things
But I looked outside at what I had to work with
And realized I was nothing but an idiotic dreamer
So I turned and started to hate everything that followed
No reasons needed or even judgments
I just trot on with that philosophy of insanity
My life to always be a hell on earth
So I laugh at myself for every stupid mistake
So I feel loved every time I bleed
So I feel at home when I am in pain
So I feel right when I anger at anything
Hell, I tried and now I only expect what comes
Expect a horrible death, expect a miserable life,
Expect a memory full of sorrow, expect nothing
Then again I am him…I am him…I am…
But I will keep on smiling
Showing my shadow in your light
Darkness rules me
I am your mirror
What I am and have become
Is noting new to the world
But you may know it as a loser
A person who will no doubted fail
But then again you see me by your human eyes
Because no matter how screwed up I can get
I will always have the dark thoughts
I will always have the things that make me smile
They saved me from a bliss
A state of mind so horrible to me
Yes, I am not a normal soul
But what I am has nothing to show for what I mean
It is like having turrets syndrome of the mind
There is such things, and in its effect my memory fails
But I see that even that is an excuse to this world
Only if you all saw what I saw in so many
If they saw what I see…
Would I be considered inhuman
Maybe a monster…
Maybe…
But then again it is all a game that I will never play
Those thoughts only drive yawns in me
I am tired of even thinking it at times…
…wow I am insane…
But reality is that I drive on in my shadows
They follow and stare, waiting to attack again
Some demons of my creation, other of what I became
But surely never again will I be attacked for I am protected
Unfortunately what protects me is also my downfall
Soon I will have to pay my toll
But a gamble is a gamble
I’ll run my luck
The cause for happiness is my own insanity
………insanity………..
………insanity……….
……..insanity…….
….insanity….
insanity²
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Another dream has come and gone
A stream of memories course through me
Like liquor I am mesmerized by its greatness
Only to fall to my own miss leadings
The puppet asked his puppeteer why he existed
The child asked his mother why he was born
The computer asked its user why it is used
The people ask their gods why existence is
I am more a fool than an intelligent one
I distrust in my decisions for that reason
I was always told I wasn’t capable
Of guiding a safe life with my mind
As soon as the sun rises I am in a hell
The world ready to devour my every weakness
But at times I let it nibble on my flesh
Then again I never said that, only instilled
I trust no one for reasons I can’t even think of
I guess the problem is simpler than many
I just lack the trust that is required
Like if they were not of my race or kind
When I truly try my hardest is when it hurts most
I stand in a point where everything is just wrong
Like if I wanted things right I would be punished worse
Like if my good intentions only get me killed in life
I dared to dream once in my distant past
A child with hopes for great things
But I looked outside at what I had to work with
And realized I was nothing but an idiotic dreamer
So I turned and started to hate everything that followed
No reasons needed or even judgments
I just trot on with that philosophy of insanity
My life to always be a hell on earth
So I laugh at myself for every stupid mistake
So I feel loved every time I bleed
So I feel at home when I am in pain
So I feel right when I anger at anything
Hell, I tried and now I only expect what comes
Expect a horrible death, expect a miserable life,
Expect a memory full of sorrow, expect nothing
Then again I am him…I am him…I am…
But I will keep on smiling
Showing my shadow in your light
Darkness rules me
I am your mirror
What I am and have become
Is noting new to the world
But you may know it as a loser
A person who will no doubted fail
But then again you see me by your human eyes
Because no matter how screwed up I can get
I will always have the dark thoughts
I will always have the things that make me smile
They saved me from a bliss
A state of mind so horrible to me
Yes, I am not a normal soul
But what I am has nothing to show for what I mean
It is like having turrets syndrome of the mind
There is such things, and in its effect my memory fails
But I see that even that is an excuse to this world
Only if you all saw what I saw in so many
If they saw what I see…
Would I be considered inhuman
Maybe a monster…
Maybe…
But then again it is all a game that I will never play
Those thoughts only drive yawns in me
I am tired of even thinking it at times…
…wow I am insane…
But reality is that I drive on in my shadows
They follow and stare, waiting to attack again
Some demons of my creation, other of what I became
But surely never again will I be attacked for I am protected
Unfortunately what protects me is also my downfall
Soon I will have to pay my toll
But a gamble is a gamble
I’ll run my luck
The cause for happiness is my own insanity
………insanity………..
………insanity……….
……..insanity…….
….insanity….
insanity²
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