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life.... today.
full of s**t
i am really really really sick of dealing and listening to my mothers s**t. thats all she is and thats all that comes out of her mouth. so now its time for me to let out some steam.

my mother thinks that i am the antichrist. basically is what she is trying to say.

i (as of late) have been hanging out with my good hippy friends. and my boyfriend. ryan and aaron being the two. and occasionaly ryans girlfriend hayden. but that doesn't happen very much. me and ryan have late bird classes at the highschool after school. and aaron had to babysit pretty much every day from after school to 4. which isn't very long. ryan is now living with aaron because he is 18 and his parents said out. i..... am a miserable teenager that does not get into very much trouble as much as some people would wish to think.. i have so much fun with my boys and i would give anything in the world to save them if something happened. i take care of them and i love them. specially my aaron. he is...... well a wolf. and he is my wolfy. back off girls. lol. but he has some anger problems that aren't his but his wolf's. but he still has to deal with it.. and when he was with his ex. shawna. he was miserable and depressed and angry. and i was pretty much the only one who could make him happy.... soooooo.......... october 31.. thats halloween for those of you who need the help.... is when i put it all together. aaron offered to let me hang out with him and the other boyos and trick or treat with them. soooooo i did. i told my mother i would be home at like.... sometime that night. i said probably ten or eleven at night but i said i would call if i was going to be later. and i did. at eleven i called and told her i would be back in a few more hours. she said.... OKAY...... so when we decided to walk back to my house to drop me off is when i decided to make aaron mine.
i had been holding his hand most of the night because i was being random. but then i started thinking. so me, ,my little brother, ryan, and aaron were walking and we saw a bunch of shooting stars. it was cute. lol. soooo .... when we were like down the road from my house i decided it was now or never. i turned around and let aaron kiss me. YAY!!!!!!! well lets just say that we blosomed and we are doing great and i would never have it any other way. sept some people at school hate me for it. but i don't give a s**t about some of them anymore.. i love aaron a lot. and ryan is pretty happy about it. and let us add in that aaron is so much happier with me and hes doing better and hes not depressed and slaming his fists into walls any more. i think his wolfy likes me like i like him.sooooo every thing is workin out for me.. (sept a few minor details with other people but im not gonna talk about those in this journal.) lately i have been going to the library after school with ryan. the LIBRARY! we go there and sit and eat pop tarts cause i swear i have a quarter fairy that slipps me quarters. its weird. lol. and then we would walk over to aaron and ryans house cause i love to be there with the boys and run around and be wierd. just because im with the boys and they love me for me. and i love being around aaron. bbbbuuuuuuuuuuutt...... i ALWAYS COME HOME AT 6:30-7:00!!!!!!!!! i have not been late since the day of halloween. 6:30-7:00! aaand my mom throws a fit. what kind of stupid idiot parent would complain about their daughter comeing home at 6:30-7:00..... seriously. come on now.... who?
WELL OBVIOUSLY MY MOM IS ONE OF THOSE BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sooooo.. for the last two hours my mom has been screaming at me in the car. and im about to kill her. seriously. she tells me about all the s**t that i am. and how i screwed up her reputaitionHOW? cause i ditched a couple classes a couple times. i have A's and B's and one C in my extremely stressing difficult algebra 2 AP class. cause you know b's and one c is the scum of the world. because i dyed myhair with red on top. because i wear leggings beneath shorts. because i buy tripp pants and jnco jeans. because i go to the library and don't relaly care to call before i go. (lets add the fact that she won't let me have a cell phone so i can't call her to tell her) and that im home before 7:00 pm. and becuase like being with them SO Much more than being with my family (those two boys are the family i wish i had) because i take care of my boys, because i have fun when im not home, because i've never been escorted home by the cops.. becuase I AM WHO I AM AND I AM NOT LIKE HER!!!!!!!

I WILL NEVER BE A GOD LOVING, BIBLE THUMPING, s**t THROWING ,SCREAMING ,HYPOCRIT!!!!! WHO THINKS SHE CAN RUIN HER OWN DAUGHTERS LIFE AND SAY IT IS BECAUSE SHE KNOWS WHATS BEST! IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN TO ME.!!!!!!!!! I WILL BE A BETTER PERSON THAN HER. i always have been and always plan to be. i am full of love for some people. but I HAVE NOTHING BUT LOATHING FOR THAT b***h!!!!!!!

SO BITE ME... thats my little rant. lol. im done.
i love aaron

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  • User Comments: [3]
    Kazuki Daisuke
    Community Member





    Sun Nov 23, 2008 @ 12:48am


    I see well i dont know what to say love. Ill think about it.Well call me tonight if you can ok!


    Rowan_NightAngel
    Community Member





    Tue Dec 16, 2008 @ 06:08pm


    *le sigh* Lydia, I love you to pieces. I always have. I still stand by my thoughts that you are making life hard for yourself, and nobody else has the power to keep things under control than yourself. You're the one choosing to disobey, to be rebellious, dishonest, deceitful... You're the only one who can choose NOT to be in trouble, and yet you pursue being the center of attention. You chase after temporary feel-goods and fail to think about the future. Of course mom is upset, after throwing her mistakes back in her face, you go out and make the same one. You have a very addictive personality, and the failure to think about the future severely increases the chances of you doing permanent damage to yourself. Mom loves you, I love you, the family that you need is right here. The family that you chase after is one that will up and leave once you no longer have anything left to offer. You throw away love that lasts far beyond your faults, love that wants the best for you even though it might hurt. You loved Kelsey, you chased after that friendship with everything, and look what it turned out to be. She left once she decided you had outlived your usefulness. Without choosing Jesus Christ, the author of life, you automatically choose death. You choose anger, dissention, broken relationships, hurt. Maybe you're the hypocrite, searching for acceptance so hard where it will certainly fail. I know you can see the beauty of my life, or else you would hate me just as much as mom. You don't have to be stupid mindless bible-thumper to live for Jesus. But I do know this: one day you will kick yourself for pursuing worldly attention and feel-goods, because all of this will pass away. Then what, Lydia? Then what?


    leaving848
    Community Member





    Thu Mar 19, 2009 @ 03:13am


    as assumption on your part. and do you know how to spell assume?

    YOU MAKE AN a** OUT OF U AND ME!

    so.. Keep what you think you know to yourself without anything to back it up.

    It was completely DIFFERENT why we split up for a bit....


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