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Wrong. How truly wrong I was. I should have known things would change. Things would never be the same. I met up with my old friends...it didn't feel like it used to. It seems like they didn't even care if I was there or not. I feel...lost. I don't know where I'm supposed to be or what I'm supposed to do. My worst fear was that all of my old friends would entirely forget about me. Never think about me like I do about them every single day. And it seems like it's coming true. It hurts. I want to scream. I want them all to listen to me. They wouldn't even be able to grasp how I've felt since I left them. What great friends they are. I should have know. SHOULD HAVE KNOWN! I'm an idiot...to think that people would actually care if I was there or not. And the one person I loved the most....... I don't know if I'm ever going to want to see their faces again. I wish I could forget about them. Forget about everything. But in the back of my mind a voice is whispering. Don't. I loved them. But obviously.............I should have been smarter than to have done that. Now I have my new friends. A new life.. and I hate it. But if I said that to someone they would think "Why? You have an awesome life!" That's what they think. It hurts........
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