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And it is with both great amusement and great music (I love you, Earth Wind, and Fire) that I say exactly how happy this makes me. Hell, I'm not even as cynical as I usually am, and that generally means something is either very wrong or very right. In this case, I'm pleased to say the latter. And at that point, I'm also pleased to say that me and her are happily (at least I hope so, if not I'm obviously doing something wrong or not doing something at all) together. Though it's hard for me to overstate just how awesome this is, I really have to say that every moment, every precious, precious moment spent even thinking about her, pretty much brightens my day. God, aside from anything else it's making romantic, but a friend of mine recently informed me of the emotion already being there. I guess I could slightly agree with him, but in fact, I've never needed to explore it before because, honestly, I've never needed to. Now, now I'm having to face and open it up.
Ah, the pleasures of happiness!
Yet I've got to by some strange need to retain a shred of myself avoid falling too far into the "lovey dovey" mentality. Love, when It's true, and affection, when it's appropriate, are the foundation, but honestly, I've never been fond of having a "fantasy" attitude about affection. Caring, well, I care about her more than anything else I can even begin to think of, but affection is something needing moderation and timing. And dammit if I'm not anything else I at least have good timing when I want to. And now, I more than want to time myself well to retain stability and this delicate web I've fashioned. Soon it will be no less then a concrete flood, but now, it's frail. And that frailty is something I've got to pay close, very, very close attention to. I've messed up once, I can't fail like that again, not if I care about her.
And now, I end this rambling session with the hopes that the reader has come to be all the wiser about me, and my very fortunate situation.
 ZombieDragon201 · Fri Oct 24, 2008 @ 05:03am · 0 Comments |
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