...and yet it's so hard. Haha, I've been so depressed lately it's nowhere near being funny. The worst part is, I don't even know why..
It started the day Kiba left.. I was in a great mood the day before from kyokai... I thought everything was great and that nothing could go wrong with the way I was enjoying myself, but later on that night before Rosette left she started getting depressed, and that sorta brought me down (I got a really cute pic of her though... I dressed her up trying to cheer her up and she looked like an anime chara... 3nodding )
The next morning I wake up really late 'cause I stayed up late... So I woke up at like 12. I'm amazed my mom let me sleep in that much. So anyways, everyone starts getting stressed... no one seems to have a problem at first with me being online but then after I start talking to Kiba I start getting upset 'cause he's leaving and blah blah blah, everyone knows I miss having him around and don't be offended by that. crying I can't help it.
So Jeff came in and yelled at me, I screeched at him, started crying, pulled at my hair in an upset way, and curled up into a ball on the floor, sobbing like that, trying to explain it. I can't even remember what now but it led to a family lecture time. It sucked. 'cause I know we aren't ever going to fulfill those plans we devised to keep the family time more... *sighs*
anyways I cried for like 45 minutes. It felt horrible.
Yesterday I was wigging out over my freaking failure at being a good student in school anymore. Damn computer crying And yeah, I wish I didn't live on the computer. Sad fact of Wendy. *sigh*
Well, atleast I still have people there for me that are concerned, and on the bright side the classroom portion of driver's ed ends for me tomorrow sweatdrop So that should be fun.. Sorta >>
But I get to drive with Ta-chan which is cool ^^
 Hoshi Okami · Thu Sep 29, 2005 @ 04:58am · 0 Comments |
