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Silence
Ah. Silence. To some extent.
All I can hear is the Lullaby. Or what I thought was the Lullaby.
I found out that the song that managed to take my mind off everything...Even her....Isn't the song at all.
I'm not bothered enough to look the acctual name up right now.
I feel empty right now. So empty.
Just like the most pitiful dreature in the world should feel....
So lost. My mind is racing with thoughts.
So many thoughts.
My eyes feel empty. Like they can't see anything anymore.

I'm tyring so hard to forget. But what I'm forgetting...Is hard to explain.
Am I trying to forget HER?
Am I trying to forget how misrable my life is?
Am I trying to forget the little happiness I once had?

Creatures of Sin she said. Creatures of Sin. Creatures of SIN.
Darkend thoughts. Darkend mind.
I look away to see nothing of what I wish to see.
I see nothing. Nothing but the grace of Death.
I wish to cry the pain away.
But what the use if salt only stings the wounds.
Crearues of Sin. Creatures of Sin.
If I close my eyes would that make it better?
Doubtable.
I doubt so many things.
Even the emptiness I feel.
I am a Creature of Sin.
Sin. Sin. Sin.
An empty Sin that shows no boundry of the level of hell I will be sent to.
Empty Sin. Empty Sin.
Nothing but empty eyes.

Let me see something!
Something that can fix it all!
Something that can end it!
A Blade?
No.
Rope?
No.
Arsenic?
No.
Is there nothing?
I wish not to die.
Know that if you are reading this.

Sleep.
I can sleep.
Another dreamless sleep.
One final escape from the world of the most pitiful creature.
But to escape what is the final question.

If we are all Creatures of Sin, then won't we all go to Holy Land?






User Comments: [9]
ustan-sama
Community Member





Sun Sep 14, 2008 @ 07:35pm


Yes, we are Creatures of Sins. We all can regain remption.

"If we are all Creatures of Sin, then won't we all go to Holy Land?"


I wonder about that. There are so many questions though.

"Is the Holy Land truly real?"
"Will we go there if we believe in God?"
"Will it come sometime in the future."


Well MY answer to that is:

There is no Holy Land. This place is Hell. Earth is Hell. Reality is Hell. There is no Holy Land, not in the future, no where since this is Hell. We could all do something to atone for our sins, but God won't be here to tell us what to do. He's up there, high up, beyond the clouds, looking down at us. God isn't in this world, the Holy Land isn't in this world because this world is already being ruled by the leaders of Hell.

Yes, yes. I'm thinking negative thoughts. Well I am only just stating a fact. Earth is Hell. Hell is worst then the Earth Hell. We can't reach Heaven because it is to high up. Only the GOOD people go there.


batmanluver01
Community Member





Sun Sep 14, 2008 @ 11:38pm


And you kind Vannaka, are the kindest of the all. No heavan. The holy land. This I have known for far to long


ustan-sama
Community Member





Mon Sep 15, 2008 @ 02:13am


Hhm. . . . . . . Okay then, I admit that you have a point there. People can be a "Holy Land".

But the thing is, I've only shown my kind and nice side. I've been hiding my true feelings. You might have an idea how much I want to snap and yell at people. . . . . . AH DAMMIT!! You're ******** right. Oh god...... Damn you Paige!!! whee


batmanluver01
Community Member





Mon Sep 15, 2008 @ 07:02am


Don't you belive there is some right behind all wrong? Behind the anger we wish to show? There is a place within us all that atones our Sins, but can it send us to a place where happiness and truth can really be seen.
I've always wanted to be some kind of artist. They use lies to tell the turth. Lie to me.


Little Miss Rigor Mortis
Community Member





Mon Sep 22, 2008 @ 03:41am


To an extent...I believe that this is hell. Here, everything and everyone is a lie. sometimes the lie si beautiful and helps us forget that this si infact, hell. but other times...the lie itself is so ugly and mostrous that we can see it, our reflection. because we all have something to lie about.


[on a happy note: hi, ya dear! smile how is school life treating you?]


ustan-sama
Community Member





Tue Sep 23, 2008 @ 03:58am


I agree. We're all in hell, no matter what happens. There is no safe haven in this world. That's why I hate this world, and wish for everything to just end already


batmanluver01
Community Member





Tue Sep 23, 2008 @ 05:39am


Hell can be a beautiful Place though. To see the death of an enemy, to see a broken heart fixed and reapired, but only to be broken again. Is that not how we all live?


ustan-sama
Community Member





Wed Sep 24, 2008 @ 02:44am


That's what Hell is


batmanluver01
Community Member





Wed Sep 24, 2008 @ 03:57am


No lie


User Comments: [9]
 
 
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