Today, well this morning I think I nearly died. Well I know a part of me did anyways. I Don't know how to put this to words. I can't even really comprehend yet of what had happened.
I know it did happen I just cannot believe it though I was there. Katana Shade Antkowiak, died at 7:48am this morning. I knew he was not going to make it and I know it is not my fault nor anyone elses. But I still have this guilt inside me eating away at my soul. I don't know who I can talk to about this but I do know this.
I Lost something so dear to me and I know I am never going to get it back. Had I gotten to you sooner little buddy, you would still be here with us today.
God Katana. I don't know what we are going to do without you. I think that had your geempa not been there I think I would have died as well. I am so sorry for not getting to you sooner.
But I know that God is looking after you now. And I know you are in a much better place. Please forgive me for not being there when you needed us the most. You were there when we needed you and I never once thought you would need us.
Right now we cannot go home for the pain is still much too strong. But when we get there. I know I am going to walk past your little resting spot and you won't be with us anymore to comfort us. But I know your love with live on forever. You will not be forgotten.
You were not a pet to us. My little friend. You were a child. A very loved child though we did not show it much these past few days. I am so sorry you had to go threw what you did. I am sorry we let it go on for so long.
Forgive us Katana. Please.
I don't know if I can forgive myself, And I am only able to pray you can forgive us.
Love always and eturnally
Geema
Katana Shade Antkowiak Born July 6 2004 Died Sept 17, 2005
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