Warning!: Angst ahead
Ever have one of those days..
Where you just can't stop crying after you've looked at yourself in the mirror for a long time? Where you can't get to sleep because you can't stop crying? When you think of all the bad things?
Don't get me wrong.
I'm normally happy-go-lucky, taking all the hits life throws at me.
But..
Tonight, I couldn't help but cry.
I don't know why.
And if you're worried..don't be. I'm fine.
I just couldn't stop looking at myself..
I look so pathetic when I cry, it's really kinda funny. *Weak smile*
You see..
I have this thing where I can't stop crying.
As soon as I think I'm finished.. I start up again.
I don't know what I'm crying about.
And..I know it's going to bug some of you..make you think I'm an immature fool, a little kid..
But, sometimes, I just can't stop thinking of Uni.
Sometimes that triggers it.
In fact, just typing that...
I'm alone right now.
I hate it.
I know it's childish, and stalker-like..
But I just want to hug. I miss her a lot.
...I just want a hug, maybe a kiss.
I feel so empty without her. I miss her warmth and assurance at night..
I..I don't know..
I'm so stupid..
I wish she were here right now..
I miss her..
I miss our friends..
And, on an angrier note.
I've been thinking lately(shocker, I know.). A lot.
And..I've noticed that most of us(I refuse to refer to any of my friends as "them" wink have been droning and dulling on about living in this godforsaken cornland and that..BLABLABLABALABLABLA. AHH WHAT THE ********. I'm going to stop now.
Think whatever you want-I'm going to bed.
 Paper City · Wed Jul 30, 2008 @ 10:47am · 0 Comments |
