finnaly I got in to an organization and media thank to photography for the 3rd try on my last year but technically 4th year but I am delayed so theirs no thesis yet so I have free time and about a year left hopefully. One of the hard requirements is that I have to eliminate my super shyness and nerviousness. Hopefullt no some anti something syndrome that I can be medicated but no one wants that. Well it's vert hard cause it's hard.
First of all whatever saying out there of will and mind over matter but it's hard for me. Every time I go in front of a lot of people whether it's just receiving an award or play especially giving speeches. My body just shakes along with my voice.
Well for now it's just to them. I have to lessen my comfortability time since it's like 2 months trial period and I have to find everyone of them stat. Well mostly I am afraid of talking to them since my memory for face and names suck so very much like when I already spoke to this person a few minutes later I forgot that I already did.
Well more challenge is that most of them are younger than me and is also a bit afraid or something towards upper levels even though I think that their mental age is far older than me.
Well have to do my best find courage whithin me and hope for luck on people not just stuff (which i like).
 goddessanime · Thu Jul 03, 2008 @ 04:59am · 0 Comments |
