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waters rush
Flowing faster
down my face

Small noises
from my throat

Why am I crying
why do you care
why do you notice

You loved me
thats why

yet that one
wishes to heal
heal my heart

The burned
the scarred
the bleeding
heart

my heart was healed
and yet
that one hurts it too

but this one I don't let go of
I can't let go
even if I hear
another one calling me to fall
fall in to its arms
where it wishes to hold

I forced the wind
to drown
out the voice
that voice
I know is real

yet I have to hold
on to the
unbelievable

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My heart yearns to stay
Your tears
run down my face

I hear you scream
I'm the cause of it
all of your pain

I close my eye's
and pray
Dear lord please
tell me what to do
I'm so confused

I slip
I fall
I break

Yet still
I don't know
what do I do

Dear lord tell me
I'm so confused
I'm the cause of it

I'm the cause of all his pain
I love him
Yet I hurt him

Do I really love him
maybe great father
you could tell me
do I love him
or am I not facing the truth
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You know I wonder why
Why do I let you do this
Why do I let you hurt me
Why...

I can't stand being alone
and you saved me from that
Well now your moving on
from this bond we had

Now I don't mean we were in love
We were friends and that held me
It held my heart from breaking
Now I'm a thing of the past

I'm mean to you to make you hate me
So that you can't break me
Me and my broken bonds
We will die together

You will love
and it won't occur
it didn't before
but then I told you

back then I told you
and you stopped but it hurt
It hurt you so bad
I can't see that again

I remember when you first started this
You said that I didn't like this
Just like I hadn't before
but I said I didn't and I don't

because I believe you wouldn't forget
forget your my friend
but you did, and I was wrong
Well won't be a first

I want you happy
so now I ask
Stop remembering me every now and then
and just forget me like you want to.


I'm mean to you to make you hate me
So that you can't break me
Me and my broken bonds
We will die together

You will love
and it won't occur
it didn't before
but then I told you

back then I told you
and you stopped but it hurt
It hurt you so bad
I can't see that again
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I'm sitting here
watching your pain
I remember my own
my heart lurches
I want to cry
but I smile
I want you to be strong
You need to be
So I won't cry
till you are strong
So when I cry
you can smile
and say
"Stay strong"
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You say you can't go on living
You say you want to die
I think your only problem
is fearing to fly
To fly away from all you pain
will bring such happiness
you act as if you wings are clipped
you are afraid to fly
your afraid to have to say goodbye
To all those memories.
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I listen to your worries
now you want to be with everyone
even though you know you can't be with me
What am I suppose to do
just sit back and watch
no I can't so instead
I'll fall why your not looking
I'll fall back in to the darkness
that I crawled out of to meet you
so I hope someday
I see that bright light again
and perhaps I'll crawl toward it
or perhaps not.
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You yell you scream
because of those people
that you don't like
but I consider friends
you only don't like them
because one of the kids
because he likes someone
thats 9 years his junior
yet your wife is t10 years older than you
you say we intruded when we were invited
your mad because we stayed up.
I guess I'm sorry.
but no you hate that
as least when I say it
but if I don't say it
your mad because I don't
so what do I do
I'll just listen to you
and hope
you don't ask
Why.