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My heart is uneasy right now, there is guy on my winter swimteam that I really like. I think that I might love him, but I don't think I can trust my heart with these feelings. I'm afraid that if I tell him he will just reject me and that would be unbearable. I have been dump twice that hurt a lot and I think that if I that close to another guy I like that I will just get hurt again. Even when I get emotional hurt I don't act like nothing happened. I'm really afraid of show my true feelings to any one. Does that distance me from ones that are close to me? Someone please give me advice on what to do. These feeling are so strong that they might burst out at anytime. cry