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All day I have been zoning in and out. That might not seem unusual to those who know me, but its what ive been thinking about when I zone out that is scary. With the death of 3 people dear to me, I just began thining about my own death. And its not a normal one. My death, as I see it, will be caused by my own hand. And it scares me because I thought I was past that phase in my life. I need to get this thought out of my head. I mean, I dont have the impulses to, its just there. Its like that annoying itch right in the middle of your back. You know, the one you cant reach no matter how much you try. I dont know.....