Honestly? I don't think it would make a God Damn difference if I got down on my knees and begged for forgiveness for whatever it was I did to him and his family. I can't be sure what my mistake was, but whatever it was, I feel bad, I ruined everything. I just want them to know that I didn't mean to hurt them, and if I did hurt them I'm truly madly deeply sorry. I didn't mean to make them feel suffocated I just...Wanted to talk to them. I wanted a friend I guess. Someone like her, someone I could tell my deepest thoughts and not be judged. and having someone in the family like that is just a pain. its like not having a councilor thats in your family council you. Ya' know?
I just want her back. I want my friend back. I'll go through anyone and everyone to get to her.
This is like reaching for a star. You keep on and keep on, even though you'll never quite grasp it. Once you realize you can't have the star you stop trying. I guess I just cant take the fact I'll never get her back.
Love is like a rose, its delicate for one. for two: its painful. for three: it can be ripped apart so easily.
I just...have so many thoughts at the moment.
 Pleasure moon · Mon May 19, 2008 @ 03:48am · 0 Comments |
