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HEAR MY RANT OF DOOM!!!!!
I'm the wind.

I blow through people's life. You may notice but I'm not going to pay any mind. All that will be left of me will be the presence that you though you felt. The slow breeze that was there.

You think you can own me? Id rather DIE than give you the power to control me.

You think that there is a possibility that you can love me? Can you love the scars that are imprinted on my arms? Can a boy love a girl with a broken heart?

"The smartest people will be the most depressed because they know exactly what is going on in the world."

"Only love can break your heart."

People are broken everyday. Hearts torn apart and stamped on.

I WISH I HAD SAVED ALL THE TEARS YOU MADE ME CRY SO I CAN ******** DROWN YOU IN THEM.

I tell myself I won't think about him. But s**t, who do I think I am? I won't look at him as he passes by my chair. I hate how you can move on everyday while I'm left standing still in the rain.

"They all ask me what is so special about you but i don't tell them because I'm afraid they will fall in love too."

I look at you and I break down inside. Your smile warms me but tears me apart. If you choose someone else because I'm not good enough for you you might as well kill me.

I wonder if he knows he is all I think about at night. You would think that I would want him to die. But iinstead I wish he would fall into a deep hole. A deep deep dep deep hole. This way HE could feel how LONELY and what it feels like to be LEFT ALONE IN UTTER DESPAIR.

"I love you" You say this yet you only wanted my body. I ask you why you wanted to date me and you tell me "I like your body and I want to touch it"

And you said you loved me.

HE would never had said that.
Would he?
NO.

I wonder if he misses anything from when we were dating.
I do. I miss every aspect of it.
But....
If he misses something from that, then doesn't that mean he misses me?

What a strange and wonderful thought.