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I cried at school today.
That NEVER happens unless I'm sick or really really really lost in my life.
I cried in front of my friend. . .I craved human contact for a moment. . .for one small moment I wanted to be held. . .for a moment I was looking for a mother, in her. . .for one moment I allowed someone in. . .it wasn't so bad I guess. . .I dunno. . .Everything has gotten worse, so bad that even Aaron has backed down and is whimpering like a little puppy. . .

I cried at school today.
But only for a moment...tomorrow or the next day or the day after that, I'll be back to my normal self. The one who puts on an act for everyone and everything. . .how much longer can this go on?

I cried at school today because. . .
He said he has a gun...and he's been doing drugs....
the other one called and he might be going to war....
I might have to move away from my pack....
there's them, they have no clue what's going on, how serious this all is...they'll always and forever be stuck in their own little world where they, and they alone, are god.

I cried at school today, but only for a moment. . .I wanted that moment to last a life time so I could finally be free.

I cried at school today and learned maybe it's ok to cry when you really need to...sharing feelings isn't weakness, it's strength. . .yeah. . .you can learn at lot at school. . . .maybe more than you realize. . .