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I've been depressed recently actually I would never go goth or emo though but its been hard on me the last few weeks I feel as if im just a pawn in a big game of chess with the giant king looming over me I feel my life at times couldn't get much worse even though I know it can sometimes I feel dark sometimes i feel light and when my friends are around I feel just too confused I am afraid one day all of them will go there seperate ways leaving this soul to feel utterly alone. My friends steadily pull away maturing faster then me leaving me sitting in the dark a lone Blackbird. They will leave without sheding a single tear but listening to my many tears of sorrow. One day I will take my last deep breath and close my eyes for the last time and never open them but I shall see a light with warm radiance and there my family will be waiting for me. Do not shed a tear for me do not be sad for when the welcomings subside I shall ask to be reborn. Maybe as a friend all love who can mature a little faster or as an animal who all love or maybe I will be able to roam the world as a spirit and watch over my family maybe just maybe I'll find peace. Although I'd live this life over and over just for the one I love to continue to love me back.