My mother is a sweet, no nonsense woman, but there are times where she just doesn't make much sense! @_@ I tend to forget some things, you see, such as school assignments and emails to Grandma thanking her for the 20 bucks she sent me for my birthday (which i still have yet to do >> wink .
This very morning, I left my english binder at my house when it had some homework i had worked hard on. I was getting my stuff out for math class when i realised the binder was not there! eek I wasn't happy, to say the least. The first thing I thought was, "Oh, carp! Mom's gunna kill me! gonk " Whenever I'd forget an assignment my mom would get very frustrated with me and she do her little "angry thing." I would always feel bad cuase I let me and my mom down.
When I tried to think of ways i could get the binder back before 3rd period (Math was 2nd) and while my plan was well thought out, I didn't plan on my older brother's phone being turned off -____-; I was in a slump most of the rest of the day, dropping test tubes with chemicals on the floor and on the desk in Chemistry, being less than perky during lunch, feeling lethargic during P.E., and having a bit of a rotten spell in World History when i commented (rudely, apparently sweatdrop ) that my buddy's ears were big (I said i was sorry but I'm not sure she'll talk to me *cough* -o-; ). Eventualy I came home and managed to get some munchies in me before my mom came home.
When she did come home, I broke the news to her has swiftly and as well as I could. To quote her exact words would be, "*Scoff* Geez, Kristin! Can't fricken believe you ><" I felt let down. I thought that I handled the situation as well as I could (and pretty darn good at that 3nodding ) but I it just wasn't enough for Ma << I felt frustrated that Mom would be frustrated at me even though there was not much else I could do. I wanted to tell her off and say that I at least tried to fix it, but I'm sure that that arguement wouldn't fly with her >< She left the house with my older brother and while she was gone, I imagined me explaining to my mother my side of the situation and she not even trying to listen to me xp I, being mundo hormonal, began to tear up at the injustice of it cry I pulled myself together and here we are now sweatdrop
My mom, as sweet as she is, is very hard to please ._. I feel that she expects to much from her kids and when we do something that is up to expectations, she gets frustrated at us. I try to see it from her POV (that since she is a single mom she as to do a great job at parenting and also her perfectionistic 'tude) but I still don't see why she can't forgive me for my shortcomings ._. I know I forget things, and I feel guilty but I know I can at least attempt to fix it. To me, Mom only sees my screw ups during times like these and she can't seem to forgive me. I am just a kid after all! I gotta learn on my own! talk2hand But, again, i can see a part of her take on this. She loves me so much that she doesn't want to see me fail in even the slightest bit. She tells me often that she doesn't want me to make the mistakes she made when she was growing up so that I will grow up alright. I don't think she sees that I need to make my own mistakes and learn from them. And if I don't learn now, when will I ever?
Rae Mina Community Member 
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