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I wish I could change things about me sometimes, I mean who dosn't? Its only human. I don't feel this way all the time, just sometimes I wish is I could learn things without having to go over them a thousand times.I always feel stupid when I just can't seem to understand a problem and everyone else already has it solved. I also wish important things could just stick in my head. Why is it I can remember something from a movie 10 yrs ago, but I can't seem to understand how the world works? Like Government, and Math, and really really big words, and the meanings to them?
I know when I'm old enough to be on my own, I know I'm going to be ok. I mean, sure I'll make mistakes but I'll learn from them right? I may be feeling blue one day but I'll be cheery the next. I may do something and get myself into trouble, but I wont be afraid to call my family for help. I mean they'll always be there won't they? No matter what, we are always there for each other and when we need saving we'll come to the rescue. I sure hope so. I don't know if I'm ready to know everything on my own. To be one of the "grown up people". What if I mess up real bad? What I become someone completely different like on Disney's The Kid?
I don't want to become some boring bitter person, that doesn't want a dog. Or even despises children! I want to still be me!
Ok, I guess maybe I should take my own advice and not wish sometimes to be different? I'm me and nobody can be me, there is no other me. That's a wonderful thing that I wish others could feel about themselves too, I wish I could just shake people who put their selves down, and just say snap out of it what are you doing? your you for a reason dont ever let anybody make you feel unimportant. There is nothing wrong with you, be who you are.
Am I bipolar much or what? One minute I'm down, then the next I'm up. What the heck is up that?
Anyways,
I know I still don't like to have weaknesses but to tell you the truth I wouldnt really change me, maybe those weaknesses are to help me and keep me out of trouble. who knows. biggrin