I HATE IT!! gonk I can't draw anything but Lain...maybe this is a message to me somehow though, or maybe my mind is creating artists block because all it wants to draw is Lain cause that makes it feel more relaxed. it makes it feel like someone's there for me ya know...? I don't know why I'm trying to explain this anyway. all you guys don't give a s**t so whats the use? Whats the use in anything anymore...?
Well, I'm going to try to relax and listen to some music I haven't listened to in a while, watch some anime, and look at pics on dev art. that normally gets me out of a artists block...remembering things from the past days of this life...
(this doesn't include you dear Taye-chan. ^^- you're the best thing in my life. heart heart heart )
(Jim, you're weird and Allysa....well.....you push me aside and I don't want to take that kind of emotion "abuse" anymore.I can't handle anything bad anymore. anything to make me more upset and I'll surely die. and no, I don't want you to give me sympathy just because you feel bad about ignoring me, I want you to hang out with who you want to, and if that excludes me...well..oh well. at least I have a friend a bazillion miles away to talk to...)
 Elemental guardian Zaria · Thu Jan 17, 2008 @ 11:06pm · 0 Comments |
