the anniversary (this is a deep one!)
omg yeah like super drama at school on friday. well lauren and cory were together yesterday and erica (lauren's bff) kissed cory and yesterday lauren found out and omg you can imagine. even though i like absolutely despise her i gave her a hug because NOBODY not even her deserves that. and of course erica was sobbing her eyes out saying it wasn't her fault, but c'mon honey, HE didn't ask for it. and cory was so pissed he wouldn't talk and wouldn't look anyone in the eye. but it was his fault too cuz he kissed back. and also... today is the anniversary of the whole when me and travis started going out. they climax of my whole thing with him. as i looked at how much changed in a year in a way i wish that better real version of travis was out and he was more himself. and i wish that we would've continued our friendship after that. but of course i made the mistake of taking it too far: and this was where it led us. maybe next year in high school... well i know that everything will be alright between us. even though im sad that it was all over so fast: im glad because i learned so much about life and love and now i want to have travis the friend back:not travis the boyfriend. maybe next time if we both want it the same something more could work out but for right now: i just need a friend.
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