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I'm in need of a life. x_x Oh and I wanna see Juno. What kind of last name is Bleeker? That is super-bland. Sounds like a pencil pusher. Anywho, I'm just gunna go on randomly.

I like to write and adore music. Poetry has become a biggie. Good or crappy it gets it off my chest and in the best choice of words. Writing itself allows me to get my thoughts organized and figured out. If I open my mouth..It's a jumble of words..

Speaking of my mouth get a load of this. My mom's friends have mistaken me and my brother's voice on the phone for each other's. They'll be all like.."Is this the boy or girl? It's the boy right?" and I'll be all like..."No it's me." and they say, "The boy?" in my mind I say "NO YOU DIPSTICK!! DO I SOUND LIKE I HAVE A TESTOSTERONE AND AN ADAM'S APPLE?!" but instead I say, "I'm the girl. What is it that you need?" My facial expression is: stare but less yellow and more human.

I'm sorta waiting for school to be back but in a way no. Why? Almost final time. -_- It's booshacka I'm telling you! They should have ended the semester BEFORE THE BREAK!! But noooo! We have 2 weeks left. One full week and then final week. Final week is odd but on Wednesday (short day! Whoo!-*school is cut down an hour short on Wed. for some reason...I think it's odd but I can't complain because I like it*)), so yah.

Ooooh! You know that guy I've labeled myself as stuck on...I'm still stuck but school is allowing me to jiggle free but ladies...He's SO CUTE!! I mean, I'd make it with him in a mad minute. Talking about making out, THOMAS!! I didn't see him on the last day. =(

But he's still sexy!! Well, Mr. Stuck and Thomas are...Well...Oh my..Whose hotter? Mr. Stuck has this strange but strong aura of sexy...I dunno...It's strange...My ex did too. ^_^ His purr would drive me crazy but anywho! Oh and by the way Thomas and Stuck OWN by ex. SERIOUSLY.

I'd choose Stuck over...Mr. a** Hole Ex anyday. You may be wondering, why is she so hostile toward her ex? NUMBER ONE! I was extremely good to him and his a** cheated on me. I didn't want to listen to his friends tell me that but they told me often...-_- NUMBER TWO. His a** broke up with me 2 weeks before my birthday. Or 1 week. Can't remember..But anyways. I was depressed and VERY VERY unhappy. He rocked my world and just sorta dumped me off the side...I was not a happy camper...I cried. =( Not like I'd let any of YOU know that but Mr. Stuck came along and cheered me up. That's probably why I like him so much. He was just there when I needed him and I didn't need to say anything when I was torn up inside. He strangely could just tell...It still freaks me out how he just knew when I'd try to hide it. >_> But anywho, that was the beginning of Stuck, the first...no second break of a** and me. Now a** is actually a sweet guy but I took it too seriously and was really hurt by the break up and he still hasn't truly left me alone. He pops out of no where and says hi and reveals my real name on my profile...I'm not hostile anymore but I would NEVER go out with him again nor would I advise any of my friends to. Oh, and i won't forget this. He called me replaceable...REPLACEABLE!! That crap won't fly with me!! But I have to give him kudos. If he weren't so bad to me I wouldn't have a spine. I had to learn from that or let it hang over me...forever..So anywho, I try not to get so...attached.

Oh! allow me to tell you about tattoos. That is an odd naughty fetish of mine. I melt at tattoos. I wouldn't ever want someone to get one but if a guy had one..I'd be blushing up a storm. Only thing I don't dig is satan tattoos. Otherwise, I'm so...welll...You get the picture. I'm droolin'. Doesn't matter how a** ugly the guy is or overweight..I just love 'em. It all started when I was int he 8th grade. This hott a** guy ((thuggish)) had one on his neck..Cursive..Looked nice...I've loved them ever since.

Anywho, what else? I have a BIG THING for light brown eyes. I went through a Bow-Wow stage..I was in love with the boy's eyes. Still am. So, if you happen to have a tattoo and light brown eyes. *squeals* Come over to my place, won't ya? Oh, my asian infatuation is new. I...Well...I THINK I know where that started but I'm not sure. It started when I got to my school and saw Thomas...And the rest of the cute asian guys here. I mean damn...They are all sooo yummy!! So yup, that is me and my guy business.

My dream home has a strong Victorian influence. I adore 19th century homes. The detail is madly incredible. Overdone and simple. If someone were to build me my dream home, they would want to quit because that is what I want. Maybe, maybe if I don't go Victorian I would go dark red and wood. Dark red as in maroon. I would want painted walls of course. Each room to be their own. Like, for me. I'd have to have some kind of red in my room and dark wood. Meh, that's just me.

I like sweets!! Candy, cake, all of it!! =D Yummy stuff is where my heart is. *points to chocolate bars and hott guys* I could eat 'em up!! ^_^ (( ninja Which am I talking about? BOTH!!))

I want to go out and do more. I spend so much time here and do the same old things. So, I'm gunna try to leave the house, with or without permission. There's a difference between being cautious and trapping someone..I feel trapped.

** UPDATE!!-Well, the tattoo thing. Well, this one guy has a tat off a naked woman on his rib area right? Moeva (friend) tell his to lift up his shirt so I could see it. I DID NOT WANT TO SEE IT!! So, naked women as a tattoo is a turn off for me...Just..ewww.