it sucks that this happened to me.......I'm not gunna get into it anymore, the only thing it made me realize is that I must be more cautious and that I'm truely a gothic lolita. I've contemplated dying a couple of times, I've thought of cutting. Shellby at school doesn't know the half of what I'm truely like. she just thinks I'm an anime freak like her and thats all. She should learn the truth I hope she does soon..right now I feel so gothic.. I'm at the point of: Hell with the world I don't give a s**t.. I'm just going to leave it alone and get my mind away from it. Who needs it?
Theres no such thing as time and reality anyway. Why bother? theres no need to do anything right now. For now, I say who the hell cares?
its not like I have anyone beside me anyway. I might as well go die. but I won't because its hard to kill yourself and if I did, I wouldn't be able to cross over unless the area where I killed myself was blessed. I really don't care about anything at the moment. My major motto has always been and will remain, " Nothing matters, nothing ever mattered."
I'm gunna go fix up my profile with hate and sadness. Until I find someone for me, I'll probably remain this way. so goodbye old me, hello gothic me. see ya peoples.
 Elemental guardian Zaria · Mon Nov 19, 2007 @ 07:39pm · 2 Comments |
