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Wow journal entries it's been awhile. But owell I need to vent. Okay so school definately started off with a bang. Though I wish it hadn't! I haven't felt this way ever. And I wouldn't wish this on anybody. My best friend left me for a crush that is just using her... just like he was using me. One day we just blew up on each other and every chain of friendship that I charished last year just came tubling down to the ground. I feel like I have nothing. I spent everyday last year dreaming about this guy, clinging to my friend Em. And then one day I woke up and we were avoiding each other like we each had some sort of disease. I'm not going to lie I have had my share in creating this sin that is tearing me apart. But I don't want to be the one that fuels it anymore. I realize now that the guy I once knew is now driven by sex. And I can't handle that. The one girl I tried to warn basically threw our friendship down in the dirt, for trying to save it. I cry when ever I see them. I know that shows me as weak but I don't care. At least I have a heart...whats lef tof it I will save for someone who really cares enough to consider my feelings before they just throw me away. Peace, Love, and Happiness even though my life doesn't contain any. crying burning_eyes Lol couldn't go out with out a laugh. That's just who I am. So I'm not leaving without a smile. Keep hope alive. Baby Keep hope alive, because there just might be freedom at the end of my rainbow. Even if the rain hasn't stopped yet! 3nodding whee (skittles taste the rainbow)