Wow..I'm making a blog..xD Um! I cleaned. From 1-5..but my room is all clean now and smells like Tropical Mist..intead of other not so pleasant things. 'Cept under my bed..and under my shelf..and under my dresser..and inside my closet..xD A lot of stuff has happened over the past week...stuff I won't write about here, because it's personal. Only one person knows..grats Ryan..xD But it makes me think a lot, about a lot of things..e.e; Mostly time, which is not an illusion. Like, one second you're sitting there playing with your favorite Barbie doll, and the next, you're...not? oO; So much can change in such a small amount of time... Such trivial things can prove to make such a difference. Things you never thought would effect you, actually do... Before I know it, I'm gonna be 18 and ready to move out. Which I would love to do... Having my own place would be great. ^__^ No ickie smoke smell, no yelling, no nothing. Just me and my candles. And my books. All my Divine reminders, sacred space, my own decorating style... Small living space (aka apartment xD)... My own responsibilities. But still... ._. As much as I look forward to that day is as much as I dread it. I can only be a "kid" for so long; I feel like I don't have enough time to accomplish everything I need to in the allotted time that everyone has... yet everyone does. Everyone does what they need to do, sets out and makes sure everything works. Everything they choose to fix, to learn, to dream... Everything works. Everything is fixed. Every dream you have can be set to be accepted and accomplished. Yet at the same time, it's the opposite. Nothing is working, nothing is fixed, no dreams can be further realized past that one brink time. The time that will effect Everyone and Everything; Time is going so fast. But I can't change that; I have to realize this. I have to realize that the world isn't going to stop turning just for me because I need a reality check. People move on...the wheel keeps turning...time keeps advancing. Better not to dwell on things you can no longer change and accept the facts. Things happen, they always do; things change...they always will.
Well, moving on... This weekend might prove to be fun...oo; I am either going up north with Billie or to Brock's house on Friday or Saturday if he ever signs online and answers me..xD Billie has quads and such up there with like a million trails. But I am NOT looking forward to sleeping. >< SPIDERS! Everywhere. Just little ones..but once, I went up north with her, woke up with 40+ spider bites on my arm. Not exagerating at all. So yeah...xD Weird. Just like 5 seconds ago I felt like creative writing now I feel like..not..writing..o_o So I am gonna wrap this up I guess.
 Kasumi Kama · Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 04:09am · 1 Comments |
