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well today started.
it was cold and nothing realy intrested meh more than the thought of jsut sleeping in but i knew i had a classes and that i realy need to work hard now and i am understanding wat i really need to do in my own way b.c i realy dont get how other ppl do the things that they do to succeed in life and in skewl. but i have found my own way to sucess. anyway. i ma kinda not having fun b.c mother ish working tonight and like meh freinds are like all doing something that i cant do tonight hopefully we can go to bush gardens or to the mall tmrw ...at the ghetto not the ******** shitty a** mall that we usualy go to. but anyway i wonder if i should be jelouse about her and like logan b.c i know they have a thng for each other and i understand that i a not the attractive one like kiona or even anyone else but like it sucks for meh u know that i have to go threw the feeling of envy on meh best freinds when i know they like each other and that logan will get hurt b.c kiona ish like a blonde flirt and logan ish all emo and u know wanting more. and hes very emotional about the littlest things. soon in high skewl i will be the one that can be called sexy and be loved or liked by ppl and ish called adorable and sexy when i walk in the room and be looked at with gazing eyes. i want to be the one that ish known for having freinds and loving ppl and being able to talk about anything and have a gewd reason and a gewd choice of advise to ppl and to share my feelings of love for a guy or a girl with out being turned down or looked down upon b.c i am to not their type or something i want to be popular with everyone and be known as the guy who writes about things that teenagers go threw guys and gurls. and both can realate to and go along with. i think i should make a myspace just for that. so that ppl can go to it and say YEAH i rember this and that. and how to handle things that can and will happen at that very moment and knowning how kids are and how mothers and fathers are and how skewls can be harsh when u are the outcast. i want to offer that to many teens and young adults that service just for help and have ppl that are able to talk to pl and relate and give them great advice. and ppl can be annymous about things and be treated like best freinds and be loved like a true freind would love them. i thinkk i should do that realy ..i will ask meh freinds on myspace if i should do it and see if i should